മഴനൂലുകള്‍ ‍/ Mazhanoolukal

I painted myself black to
see you smiling white in me
Thick, we messed in the life canvas,
Blue and red we’r in that.

Melted to purple of terrific glow, but
We reflected white in white as such
Colours we made from me and you
Mixed in thousand shades as we do.

Did we remain blue and red?
Our souls retained the purple thought
We aren’t two my dear, we could
never be two or part into
We are one and always‘ll be, Purple
thoughts will be cherished always

My love is like the heavenly pour
Wet in me my longing light
Purple thoughts, blue and burning reds
We’ll wash them off to remain white

White in white we’ll remain,
White in white we’ll remain
Beyond the pleasure,
we coloured white.

Once
with you I had lots of stuff to share
I had always loved to talk to you
Free to share what’s on my mind
Thoughts, arguments and anything
that happens under the moon

But now
I feel dying
with a broken heart
I realize
that I cant keep you here
And this is the hardest part
In your heart,
I can’t find a home
I feel dying,
Dying with broken heart

Before
I used to talk to you when I wake up
You used to listen to every of my words
Saw you when I opened my eyes
and you’re silent face was my comfort

But now
Gone
I miss talking to you
I miss seeing you before I close my eyes
I long to hearing your voice
your laughter and joy

Like a broken string of electric guitar
I feel I have no voice, no rights, and am nothing for you
Perhaps I have loved you and expected to be loved in return
Cried and begged for such love
Alone in dark, my tears are gently flowing

Salty, I felt it in my lips
Who can console my broken heart?
I had been searching for love!
Long time I have waited

But
I can’t blame you
Maybe I was selfish
I tried to learn hating you

But now
I love you more
I’m bugged day and night
Always thinking of you
Loving you more and more
Wishing to touch, kiss and hug you

How I wish in deep blue sleep
You could kiss me with my drying lips
Please wake me up from my snowy dreams
For I felt am a Prince of Losers
In prison, unloved, lonely