മഴനൂലുകള്‍ ‍/ Mazhanoolukal

I dont know why this happens...........

Some times I wish if I could be alone for a while.......to scream loudly..........

And finally, it happens and I am alone at home... with wandering thougthts... Thought about rain... .................................... For the first time in my life this year I started observing the season........

In winter...Dew Drops shined like jwells in my mind.. as promised this December did not bring any surprise for me.............

Then came Vasantham.... Flowers every were... even the intermediate ring road was surrounded with lots of small small flowers...one of the best jounrney I had while going home... only me and flowers...every bush wore a flower carpet.. even the worst looking plants had beautiful flowers on them.. I wished if could some more time there..........

Then fall and the most hated summer... every day in summer I was longing for Rain.. I was dreaming she coming in the night while I am asleep ...through the open window stretch her fingers and embrace me... I asked wind to tell the rain clouds that I am waiting........... with a thirsty heart........... And in monsoon... first rain..like the first lovemaking............ She gifted a bouque of cloudy days to us in Bangalore... so romantic weather.......... And now...why are you keeping away...dont you have anything to gift us.......?

I haven't done loving you........... I want to get wet in you............... I want to dissolve in you.............. I want to flow away with you................ I want reach the mighty ocean along with your droplets.......... Finally get lost in the cosmic life of the universe......... where are you....?