മഴനൂലുകള്‍ ‍/ Mazhanoolukal

Its a rainy day
She came and told
You have no love
And walked away
I saw tear drops
I her blue eyes
Its fall down to the
Wound on my heart
I forced to kept silence
O my dear you are my star
The glittering star

I never forgot you
And the love you showers
When we broken up
I cried my eyes out
In my bath room
Door locked behind and
Water in the shower on
Pouring out my pain
On the pages of diary

You taught me to write
You taught me to love
O my dear the wounds
Cant heal with out you
You are my glittering star
Really I lost my star

(12th March 1991)

I love boiling shiny sun
I love flowing gray clouds
I love deep blue sky
I love glittering little stars

I love green wavy mountains
I love running freezy rivers
I love flattering breezy streams
I love muddy paddy fields

I love turquoise blue sea
I love curly wild waves
I love coloured thorny corals
I love sandy soft shores

I love heavy crystal rain
I love wild dusty storm
I love Dhanumsa Kuliru
I love mad stormy fledding

I love dirty God's own peoples
I love dirty God's own air
I love dirty God's own water
I love dirty God's own country

Its a rainy day
The sparrow came to my room
Through the window
And sat on my shoulder
Shaked its wet feather
And stared on my computer
I was playing my crazy gambling
The sparrow flew in the room
Suddenly my Keyboard
Wet with red blood
And feathers drawn on my head
From the Sealing fan
Feathers came one by one
In the breeze that passed
The feathers of my love
Pause the chirping for a while
And looked on the sealing
The poor bird is broken by the fan
And hanging on the leafs
Its blood drew pictures
On my window glass
On my sealing and
On my computer monitor
I lost my love
The feathers of love
The petals of love
The fragrance of love
The beauty of love
The silence of love
She is the regular visitor in my room
And I was in love with her

Picrure: http://www.wyedeanwildlife.com/gallery/uhs1.jpg

Oh my dear
I want to be with you
Love to love and
Love to be be loved
Love to hold your hand
Where are you my love

Why you staying miles away?
Can't you listen my heart beat
Cant you understand my pain
Please come back dear
and kiss me
and hug me hard
and bite my lips
Really I want M2M*

I will be ever with you
As a shoulder to cry
As a bird to fly
As a butterfly to enjoy
Where are you dear

You frustrating me
You torturing me
I am losing myself
My head gone
My legs gone
My eyes filling darkness
Heart is torn
Only hand is writing

Oh dear come and smooch me
And hug me deeply
And bite my lips
Really I want M2M

* mouth to mouth
Picture: http://media.photobucket.com/image/kissing/TBJ06/kissing.jpg?o=1095

If you not coming to me
Why should I think on you
Why should I Love you
Why should I expect you
Why should I wait for you
Why should I pained me
Why should I care on you
Why should I feel like am insane

I asked and asked many times
Still simply you ignoring me
I cried loudly as a baby,
Begged and begged as a mysor
Pained as a cancer patient
But never you answered to me

You have no ambitions
You have no love or like
You are not a saint but
You always ignoring me

I try to tell you how I feel
But you don't care my words
If you cant love me or care
Please stay away from my soul
I am not a problem friend*
I am not a needy friend**
I have heart love to be loved
I have nothing than love

You not just a friend of me
Something more and more
You knows me well, but
You always ignoring me

Sadistic talk is going on
In a strange language
Neither poetic nor historic
Core Scientific tourchering

Air conditioner working well
But not enough to cool my brain
Its warming and warming
Entangling with creepy thoughts

Pictures are flashing and flashing
When power slides are falling to fall
Blooming fresh air in my lungs
Leading me to the cost of coconut

My Land is pure and virgin
But sadistic rulers ruining her
What I can do with my voice
Suffering and tourchering my soul

Snow is falling heavily out
Raining dreams in my heart
So far from me but you close
Just a heart beat away
Can't see or touch you
Can feel your presences
Can talk or share to you
Just a voice talk away

I cant be go without you
Dont know who you are
Talking and quarreling
Playing and hurting too
Your love as medicine
To cure my own pricks
You are a great doctor
and I am silly patient

Picture: http://www.rediscovermh.org/images/Doctor%20holding%20patient%20s%20hand%20uid%201.jpg

Something in my mind
Piercing me now and then
Dont know how to share
I am not wise as a scholar
Its pains to hold in heart
Thorny enough to break it
Melting and melting me
Frozing and frozing too
Kicking and holding me
As a baby in the womb
Cant be abort it now
Cause its part of my life
Its paining me a lot
But sweet as a Chocolate

My Professor
A genius and a meaningful
Calm as running glassy water
Soft as loving feather of peacock
So I am loving my Professor

My Professor
A descent and noble as aristocrat
Gentle among the gentle one
Neither a myser nor lavish
So I am loving my Professor

My Professor
A handsome but bit pretty one
Have a mind as Yellow Rose
And voice as running river
So I am loving my Professor

My Professor
Best in knowledge and wisdom
Sweet as chocolate in talk
Neither hot as fire nor cold as ice
So I am loving my Professor